Story Behind The Song

All through chemo people told me that they found the way I handled the process to be inspirational. I wasn't trying to be inspirational. I was just trying to live one more day, and I did it the only way I know how. It took me some time to begin to see the strength within me that others had been able to identify.

Song Description

Triumph and victory are the words that come to mind when I think of this poem. The lines are so short but each packs a punch. I wrote this after chemotherapy and it was really eye opening for me. I discredited my own strength and power for so long constantly seeking affirmation from others. Suddenly, I knew that it had been within me the entire time. ? Nothing could accompany this piece better than an afro beat to highlight a newly found cool confidence. ?

Lyrics

I didn't know
The breadth of my shoulders
The grit in my jaws
The gumption in my gut
Until suddenly I knew
I didn't know
The depth of love
The vastness of grace
The labyrinth of forgiveness
Until suddenly I knew
I didn't know
The effervescence of my smile
The extent of my patience
The mass of my heart
Until suddenly, I knew
I didn't know
The strength of my faith
The obscenity of my optimism
The fruit of longsuffering
Until suddenly, I knew
I didn't know
The weight of my pain
The struggle of the wait
The innocence of struggle
Until suddenly, I knew
And for all I now know
I know nothing at all
Except that my power
Is to know as I am known
And grow as I have grown
'Cause now I know
'Cause now I know
'Cause now I know
'Cause suddenly, I knew