Story Behind The Song

I wrote this song as I was dealing with some vices that I was trying to overcome. When the things that we are doing are common and normalized by the people around us we tend not to look at them as vices or problems. This song expresses the vices that many people go through around me and in the music culture, whether its: drug addiction, sex, or just vulnerability. Most people who are addicted do not realize they are addicted because it is usually something that everyone or most people around them are doing as well. This song was written to shed light on these things and to hopefully show people that they are not alone and that growth and overcoming these issues is possible.

Song Description

Recognizing vices and downfalls and moving forward to correct them.

Lyrics

Verse 1: (JuiceDaCity)
Everytime I bounce back, It's like I fall back down on my ass
I'm just tryna run from my past
Telling people s**t is cool when I know that it's bad
I think it's genetics I got that s**t from my dad
And it's so hard to get these thoughts out
I swear i'm all in my head
Tryna find happiness so i'm out blowing my bread
On liquor and bad bi***es good weed lean & some pills
Which is why I keep falling and I can never heal
Let's just keep it real
This is the way i feel
And way I keep itching I need some benadryl
I don't know if i'm living or it's just been a drill
Cause i'm feeling lost inside my own body
Going out every night when i'm a homebody
Hate being alone probably
Got all these vices that add up to expensive prices
Cause to me the shit is priceless
Don't even ask what the price is
Cause I swear its so enticing
And I just gotta have it
I swear i gotta have
Fighting myself tryna create better habits

Chorus:
Making mistakes, can't catch a break
I'm tryna hold on
Been hurt so many times
I ain't felt love in so long
The lord he working on me tryna make my soul strong
Remember so many times I was out wildin I was so wrong
It's hard to express myself cause the s**t that happened in my past
I use my music as therapy so I can make it past
Need some goose or ciroc if you got something you wanna ask
Ion just want peace for the moment i'm tryna make it last

Verse 2: (Hollywood Jo)
Could you spread some purpose I'm tryna find some
Tryna exceed all of my limits before my time come
I done fell off so many time i'm starting to think i'm dumb
This for everybody that counted me out thinkin that i'm done
Gotta get back to doing me I made my mind up
Gotta put love down for a second pick my grind up
I done wasted so much time just tryna find love
I was up and down the interstate running to fast
Bills and my baby mammas all on my a**
When my funds got low no talking just mash
It was h*ll going through it looking back I just laugh
Cause them will be the time that make you dog
Gotta pace the moment you can't let that s**t pace you dog
The devil working and he tryna erase you dog
When you got yo spot you can't let nothing misplace you dog

Chorus:
Making mistakes, can't catch a break
I'm tryna hold on
Been hurt so many times
I ain't felt love in so long
The lord he working on me tryna make my soul strong
Remember so many times I was out wildin I was so wrong
It's hard to express myself cause the s**t that happened in my past
I use my music as therapy so I can make it past
Need some goose or ciroc if you got something you wanna ask
Ion just want peace for the moment i'm tryna make it last