Story Behind The Song

I wrote this song at a time I was reflecting on the reason that I hold so much in instead of expressing how I really feel. I realized that it stems from society telling us that men have to be strong and expressing emotions is a sign of weakness. This song is to show people that we are all human and if you never deal with the battles you're facing internally than you can never truly grow. Mental health is real and its very important for people to talk and express how they are really feeling.

Song Description

Not holding in your feeling, and not being afraid to be vulnerable and transparent.

Lyrics

Chorus:
I kept so much in for so long I feel like I'm about to blow
All my feelings inside coming out feel like they starting to show
We was taught to hide our feelings, If you down can't let em know
But if you keeping it all in it makes it hard for you to grow
And i can't waste time
I got some demons and I know I gotta face mine
I can't be walking around poughtin with my face down
We finna spin the block and get em all erased now

Verse 1:
My granny askin me my name and s**t,
I'm lookin like she playin and s**t
That alzheimer really f*****g with her brain and s**t
Man this s**t so crazy so many feelings I gotta hide
It's so hard to let them feelings go I'm just struggling with my pride
But I know that s**t ain't no excuse
But I don't know why it's so hard to let these feelings loose
I wish I came through more just to check on you
That's why when I make it ima have to spend a check on you
Like where did the time go
I gotta keep my head up cause I know s**t gon be find though
I just hope you here to see you grandson shine though
Let's just pray and hope we win the year and make the time slow
I can't let the time go

Chorus:
I kept so much in for so long I feel like I'm about to blow
All my feelings inside coming out feel like they starting to show
We was taught to hide our feelings, If you down can't let em know
But if you keeping it all in it makes it hard for you to grow
And i can't waste time
I got some demons and I know I gotta face mine
I can't be walking around poughtin with my face down
We finna spin the block and get em all erased now

Verse 2:
I got a shawty I'm really feeling, but I don't know if the feelings the same
I guess i could ask her, but then I put my feelings in vain
I got a fear of putting my feeling in shame
I know somebody feeling my pain
I know it's part of the game but a n***a like to win
But my fear of failure got a n***a boxing in
Everyday I'm in the stu clockin in
I gotta keep my mind busy
Smokin gas got my mind dizzy
Do whatever just to past the time
Fighting with the thoughts that's in my mind
Keep brushing it off and saying I'm fine
I know this s**t gon come out one day
I just hope it don't come out the wrong way
Cause i done came way to far and I ain't going back
I just hide it in my mind right there in the back

Chorus:
I kept so much in for so long I feel like I'm about to blow
All my feelings inside coming out feel like they starting to show
We was taught to hide our feelings, If you down can't let em know
But if you keeping it all in it makes it hard for you to grow
And i can't waste time
I got some demons and I know I gotta face mine
I can't be walking around poughtin with my face down
We finna spin the block and get em all erased now