Story Behind The Song

I wanted to write some lyrics and music that could portray the emptiness and gloominess of a relationship gone sour. I never felt that 'achy breaky heart' feeling when things got sour with a woman. I always felt 'dissed', if you will. Disrespected, dismis

Song Description

Questions of identity and self worth arise when one has been led astray. More than sad or tearful, down right pissed off about the whole situation, the man in the story has nowhere else to turn but inward.

Lyrics

Call It What You Will

Listenin? to twilight, schools of spooky minnows.
Die a thousand deaths, next life is in a shit-hole.
Vacant are my bones, my spirit?s all alone.
Consolidate my soul, stick ?Fuck you? on my tombstone.
Tempted as expected, rejected the charade.
I?m super fuckin? pissed ya? spent the night out in the spray.
Kept my composure and a hundred humble pies,
It?ll take a thousand years for ya? to knock me down to size.
The line?s black and bold and ya? double fuckin? crossed it.
The world?s got a hold on me. I fuckin? lost it.
Scars in the sky, bad whiskey?s in the wind,
I couldda? told ya? from the start that I?m dying from within.
You feast on me the least, sold poison with ya? peace.
The table?s gonna turn, ma, I?m playin? this for keeps.
Quality control, ho?, proviso with a pulse.
I forbid you to freedom, yo? fraudulent at most.
Revenge in reverse, ma. It?s really gonna hurt, ma,
?Cause Im?ma be the one who fucks you over first, ma!
Tremble on ya? own, but mainly by moonlight.
Ya? never meant to leave the black forest so soon, right?
Phenomenal survivor of death is minor, miss.
Lil? hiss, lil? dis, it?s time for this.
Everything is backward, fuck happily ever after.
Tricky lil? bastard, I fight fire with laughter.
I have to, lil? girl, lil? world and somethin? else.
I?m just a lil? bitch tellin? stories to himself.
Amongst the rotten wind, many wrongs go on forever.
You can fight for what is right, but tonight it?s now or never.

[Chorus]
Call it what you will, explain in every detail.
You a cold hearted bitch, but a sexy lil? female

Had another dream about the end of my life.
Thought I?d reminisce, but it?s a slice for a price.
As seen through a mist and a liquid distant sun,
You did a lot of fuckin' damage to this here poet on the run.
You said you were an artist, came close to what is genius.
All I did was carry crosses, I?ll remember where ya? weakest.
Yo? radiator heat is a lil? bit too much.
Not the way the Cat Dad tingles to be touched.
A full moon in disguise, soaked love in fleshy red,
If I travel deep enough, then I might embrace the dead.
Tiny muffled beats. Fires below the streets.
Flames that are lickin? lonely caves were lonely meets.
I walk amongst the dead and a million deaf ears,
Unable to express a single thing that disappeared.
When the tricks have all worn out, and the rain replace the sizzle,
I?m sure that every year here, the sky descends a little.
Less than lil? secrets, a stone in loamy stillness.
I?m left with all the lil? sins to guide me through the wilderness.
Considering the magnitude of problems that we have,
Could anything this empty break a dead man?s soul in half?
The spaces in between define two faces in relief.
From the cradle to the grave, you sang conditional beliefs.
I might remove my claws, if you can take me to the sea.
Reminisce about the day you kept that secret from me.
Bite marks on my heart, I knew it from the start,
I?m the last one to know that you been dancin? in the dark.
You were covered by yo? lover. My, how you two hover.
It?s a wonder mutha? fucka? I didn?t take you out from under.

[Chorus]