Story Behind The Song
I wrote this looking back at a long life and all I've done and looked to find the threads of purpose.
Song Description
Performer looking back on his life and travels with some regret
| Song Length |
4:07 |
Genre |
Pop - General, Folk - Americana |
| Tempo |
Medium Slow (91 - 110) |
Lead Vocal |
Male Vocal |
| Mood |
Poignant, Troubled |
Subject |
Existence, Regret |
| Similar Artists |
Emmylou Harris, David Foster |
Language |
English |
| Era |
2000 and later |
| |
Lyrics
Used to be
I don't know but I'm down on my knees, the storms they weary me
The worlds a circus, calliopes cry, crazed clowns are twirling by
Oh there is a mystery born of misery, as if the truth would tear us down
And I know she knows as cold wind blows
I'm not as strong as I used to be, as I used to be
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Look up there love's winged trapeze that will throw you into the sky
But you know there's no net below, If you fall your heart will die
Walk down the midway and call the barker, tell him to give me a love song
I can't find the words for all that I've heard
I'm not as strong as I used to be, as I used to be
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Like a new rose on an old window sill my love for you still grows
Could you find a way to love me still
With stilted clowns and dreary towns
And me worn down from the road
For me a thousand miles of winding road and the years I've been away
The games I've won and the games I've lost have hardly paid the way
I see you young and standing there with a tear in your eye
I'm sorry for my shadow on your life
I'm not as strong as I used to be, as I use to be
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
I'm just a clown with lines on my face, my youth away locked inside
Cursed with lack and a poets grace as the darkness here unwinds
Could you hold me Dear just for a while and let me be a child?
Its all now like some sawdust haze as the last parade just passed by
I'm not as strong as I used to be
I'm not a strong as I used to be