Story Behind The Song

Towards the worst parts of my illness, I felt as though a piece of me was lost. That being hopeful about feeling better was a waste of time. That the people I was surrounding myself with weren't wishing me better. Doctors told me that my life had potentially just become what it is. That being sick, feeling weak was my new everyday. This song is my attempt at coming to terms with the fact that I will never feel "alive" again.

Lyrics

**VERSE:**
Sick of always waiting for the moment
That somebody says I'll be fine
Always betting on someone else to save me
Because I don't have the strength or the mind

I've been holding on to other people
Who want nothing but to see me gone
Hoping all our pieces back together
Because I don't have the will to move on

**CHORUS:**
I've been waiting for it one last time,
I've been waiting just to feel alive
and maybe I should realize
I've been choosing to believe all these lies

Now it's gone, gone, gone

**VERSE:**
Peace of mind and silence aren't the same thing
Whispers are much louder in the dark
Sometimes the voices tell me that I'm dreaming
So I get scared when I don't know where you are

I've been holding on to other people
Who want nothing but to see me gone
Forcing all our pieces back together
Because I don't have the will to move on

**CHORUS:**
I've been waiting for it one last time,
I've been waiting just to feel alive
and maybe I should realize
I've been choosing to believe all these lies

Now it's gone, gone, gone

I've been waiting for it one last time,
I've been waiting just to feel alive
and maybe I should realize
I've been choosing to believe all these lies

Now it's gone, gone, gone