Story Behind The Song

I was sick for 3-4 years starting from 2020. Doctors poked and prodded me trying to understand and figure out what was happening, but once they rules out all the small things it wasn't. They started throwing words around like "cancer" and "terminal". After hearing that my life may be cut short, I went home and wrote this song as a means of processing the information I had just received. It's first line is also the name of the album "i'm so tired".

Song Description

A ballad about being unprepared for the end due to illness. Thinking on all that could have been if not for this sickness.

Lyrics

I'm so tired
Someone check the date I think I've expired
All I wanted was to build my own empire
Did I miss my chance to inspire

I'm so scared
With all my talk I guess I'm ill prepared
Poor choice of words I think its just unfair
I never got to show the world they're still unaware

I just want to feel better
I just want to believe I"ll survive
Can you help me remember
Can you help me to feel like I'm alive

no more games
I never meant to lose or even play
There was no choice I didn't have a say
You roll the dice and have to live with your mistakes

I'm so numb now
It's all I know how
to pass the time
don't say gooodbye

I just want to feel better
I just want to believe I"ll survive
Can you help me remember
Can you help me to feel like I'm alive

I just want to feel better
I just want to believe I"ll survive
Can you help me remember
Can you help me to feel like I'm alive

I'm so sorry if I
made you worry this time
I'll try and keep inside

I just want to feel better
I just want to believe I"ll survive
Can you help me remember
Can you help me to feel like I'm alive

I just want to feel better (I'm so numb now)
I just want to believe I"ll survive (It's all I know how)
Can you help me remember (To pass the time)
Can you help me to feel like I'm alive (Don't say goodbye)

(Can you help me)