Song Description

autobiographical song about the painful and dysfunctional long distance relationship with my German biological father

Lyrics

I'm over here but you don't see me
I speak aloud but you don't hear
You put me on your shelf with your life long achievements
like a trophey or a buck...but i'm still breathin.

Well, I'm still breathin' Yeah i'm still breathin'I'm still breathin'...barely there.

so you run off and leave my mother
And start another family...
You Think your doing well
lest you've forgotten I exist.
Half way 'round the world
You left me to my own devices..
A lonely little girl
for 5 long years...
Birthdays came and went....but presents there were never
not a call or a letter
to your darling little girl
So you ask me to forgive you
maybe I can.
But I cannot forget... what you put me through
chorus
now you're little lover's left you
your boys won't talk to you...I wonder why I wonder why
so Now, you've got the time...cause you're so lonely to look up
your long lost daughter.. that you say you've missed so much.

But I have learned to live
on my own without you
and I am doing well
wanna know my secret?
You do not exist
at night when I say prayers
you do not exist
when I'm with my friends
and though I know you live
I try my best to forget you
so you can never hurt me...oh hurt me
so much again.