Song Description

This song is about tragedy, loss, coping mechanisms, survivors, and the complex relationships between them. A music box was the last gift my brother gave to me before his passing.

Lyrics

Verse:
I think about
The angry words
I hated being right
And I hated how much it hurt
I've kicked your shattered pieces
Cause your shards
Were keeping me grieving
And I didn't know how to deal
And lord knows I couldn't
Help you heal
I was all alone
And I didn't know how to be
So I grew strong

And as I spend
These final days with you
I'm scared that they'll end
I don't know what to do
I want the anxiety
To go away
Daydream my way back
To the days
When life was uninjured
That's how I want to remember

Chorus:
I know I'm a disappointment
Cause I hold you at arms length
I want to be closer than you'll ever know
But empathy overrides my strength
So I can't get too close
Or I'll overdose
And drown with you
I hope one day you'll know
I love you