Story Behind The Song

A mother expresses her love for her son and her fear that he may slip out at night and kill again

Song Description

Written and recorded by Ninety Pounds of Ugly at Tenvolt Audio in Ottawa, Canada

Lyrics

When you were small and weak I held you by my side
Such a helpless little boy, still you never cried
You never cried from watching daddy hit me
I'd cry alone when he set his sights on you

From little boy to man you never walked the line
Still I prayed through tears you'll come around in time
But every time you slip out in the dead of night
I live in fear of what you plan to do

Chorus:
Please don't slip out tonight my darling
My dear boy don't you break my heart again
Please come home if you can with
No blood stains on your hands

Please don't slip out tonight my darling
I don't want to say my prayers in fear
That I'll find out what you do from the morning headline news
Either way remember, Mommy loves you dear

Verse 2:
You came to me one day, your bloody shirt soaked through
You hung your head in sorrow, cried "Please what can I do?
I've tried in vain to kill the beast within me
I've prayed for strength but the lord won't hear me now."

I took your guilty hands
Held them to my heart
Told you son I love you
And though your soul is dark,
I see the light of good burn deep within you
Let it shine, don't let the devil blow it out

Chorus

I ask the lord each night, should I turn you in
Or keep you by my side, and let you kill again
if I bite my tongue another mother loses
Another girl whose life you've so denied

It tears me up to know that you could go away
And I would die alone son, no family at my grave
Stay at home and I will keep your secret
Til I die with you dear, by my side

Chorus