Lyrics

I?m gonna try on my favorite lie
Put on some illusion and take a drive
Today I?ll feel something and even listen when you are talking
You?ll share your heart, I?ll try to cry? I?ll try

I know I know! I?m gonna wake up every day
Say affirmations and tell myself I?m nothing short of great
And do what the happy books say
I?m beautiful and brave!

Everybody here is so pretty
Through the haze I swear she?s staring at me
Now I am someone, I?ll walk over and if she doesn?t run
There?ll be no difference between you and me? finally

Cause what I want I couldn?t say anyway
If I pretend, eventually
A new start arrives from another end
And I get to feel like I begin again

Okay Okay! I saw this in a magazine
One pill and just like that, I?m an emotionally balanced machine
It?s joy in a bottle it seems
I am so happy!

I watch the shade climb the trees leaving evening beneath
I think there?s beauty everywhere, all but inside me
No matter how many books I read
There?s no escape, there?s no relief
Oh no.

Cause what I want I couldn?t say anyway
If I pretend, eventually
A new start arrives from another end
And I get to feel like I begin again