Song Description

Oh how painful it is to suck! I know I'm sorry, but it doesn't matter, I still suck... Oh cruel world, I deserve to die!

Lyrics

Reflection

lyrics and music by Alec Stanley



There's a presence in the silence

and the presence terrifies me

My stomach muscles tighten

knowing the presence is she

who's come to do me violence

I'm face to face with me



I hate myself I wanna hurt myself

I am everything I do not want to be

When I look at the mirror hanging on my wall

everything is wrong with who I see



I keep falling into habits

that I thought that I'd transcended

I know that I broke your heart

It's not what I intended

Wounds that drove me to these things

Are open and unmended



I hate myself because I hurt myself

And hurt you as well

Maybe I'm Inanna again descending into hell

But how many times must I give my flesh

to Erishkigil?



If I do surrender now, will I not return again?

I have harmed my lovers

my family and my friends

Cruel dark reflection of myself

please let this be the end



I'm gonna let myself destroy myself

I pray nothing is reborn

The blade's edge claims every ounce of flesh

And every ounce I mourn

The pain't almost too much to bear

as the inmost dark is torn