Story Behind The Song

I personified addiction and spoke directly to it in this song: "oh, why are you making me sing this song again..." and reduced the cycle of addiction and relapse to its most basic struggle, admitting I don't know how to live.

Song Description

This 70's rock groove has a Sheryl Crow feel with Christian Cassan on drums and guitar while Greg plays a Fender Rhodes keyboard, singing a desperate play on words from John Lennon's writing in the Beatles' "Yer Blues" with "yes, I'm lonely, but I don't wanna die." This is a personal song of hope that from admitting the most basic struggle in life, addiction can be arrested.

Lyrics

Oh, why are you making me sing this song again
Oh, why have I put myself through this again
I had get out of my head
but I sure wasn't trying to get into you
Hell, no
Hell no !

I don't know how to live ...

It never seems like I know what's good for me
but I know that what I really want can never be
so come on over to my place
I've got music, pictures, wine and I'll forget your name
I swear I'll forget your name

I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live
and that's all I really have to say, yeah
It's the only thing that makes any sense
and all that I can tell you honestly

I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live
and that's all I really have to say, yeah

to get to the heart of this bleeding heart
I'm sick of lying
pacifying all my demons
I think I'm ready to get stronger
and say it straight into the mirror's eyes:
"Yes, I'm lonely"
yeah, but I don't wanna die

Oh, but I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live
and that's all I really have to say

It's the only thing that makes any sense
the deepest I can get to find hope for me

Oh, is there hope for me
I know there is hope for me
There's got to be hope for me
Yes, I know there is hope for me