Story Behind The Song

Seeing a friend try to start a new relationship and wondering how they felt about it.

Song Description

Every time I try to start a new relationship I just get reminded of the old one. When I try to look forward e.g. to springtime I'm really just kidding myself - in fact I'm reminiscing about the past and times with my first love. Will I ever be free and able to move on?

Lyrics

First light - and I'm fooled again,
I bet on sunshine - I got shame,
Seems there's a never ending price I have to pay
For pretending I've forgotten yesterday.

I hate that it's the same feeling every time I make a new start.
I wake up to a stranger in your place - and a weight upon my heart.

Beneath the barren sheets of winter white,
There lies the patient promise of new life,
There will be blossom where the trees are bare and black
But looking forward is just a mask for looking back.

I hate that it's the same feeling every time I make a new start.
I wake up to a stranger in your place - and a weight upon my heart.

So heavy I can hardly breathe
Will you memory never leave me in peace?

I know the river rapids will run calm and deep
The crying child will succumb to sleep
But can believing in the future ever heal the past -
Or must my first love always be my last?

I hate that it's the same feeling every time I make a new start.
I wake up to a stranger in your place ...