Story Behind The Song

As with all my songs, the lyrics are personal and about my life. The inspiration for the song, though, came from my cat, Hokey, who, like me, could be the devil or an angel. One night, at his most angelic in my lap, I just said to him "You're sometimes good, but you're more times trouble", and instantly knew I had a song title

Song Description

The song reflects on a life that has been spent battling mental health issues. The lyrics acknowledge the "up and down" nature of the singer's life, where sometimes it's been good, but more times, it hasn't. There is an implied wish to reverse the "sometimes" and "more times" in the hope of finding more happiness

Lyrics

I'm sometimes good and more times trouble
My life is never what it seems
My heart is somewhere in the rubble
Of thwarted plans and faded dreams
 
I don't believe I've ever been unafraid
Serenity came but never stayed
 
The fires are burning, my thoughts are churning
Sometimes, more times
The threads are unwinding, the ties are unbinding
Sometimes, more times
I've always been lost
No-one to rely on, no shoulder to cry on
Sometimes, more times
 
I'm sometimes sad and more times sadder
The longings start but never stop
My heart is somewhere on the ladder
Between the bottom and the top
 
I wander through the doorway, life sets me free
I open my eyes and I'm still me
 
The fires are burning, my thoughts are churning
Sometimes, more times
The threads are unwinding, the ties are unbinding
Sometimes, more times
I've always been lost
No-one to rely on, no shoulder to cry on
Sometimes, more times
 
There's sometimes words to say
But they more times turn to dust
When my fractured mind's at play
And there's nothing left to trust