Lyrics

PAYING FOR MY PAST
(Claire Ulanoff/Will Hopkins)


I once told a girl I loved her
Just to see how far she'd go
Took a joyride in my brother's jeep
Left it totaled out on Slate Mills Road
I've looked my father in the eye
More than once I flat out lied
'bout where I'd been and what I'd done
And he bought my lies every single one

You know what they say
You gotta live with your mistakes
But I can't live with mine, no I can't live with mine
I've done my best to change my tune
But there are things I can't undo
I've made my peace, no looking back
And I don't want to spend my future
Paying for my past

My first marriage lasted nineteen months
'Cause I was such a selfish jerk
I tossed out words like they were hand grenades
Didn't give a damn how much they hurt
I spent the next two years with my friend Jim Beam
Until the bottle brought me down
Wasn't til I hit rock bottom, surrounded by my problems
That I found the strength to turn my life around

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It ain't easy seeking forgiveness from someone else
But that ain't half as hard as forgiving yourself

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